Tonight I am starting something entirely new.
It's taken me such a long while to reach this place A place of certain serenity It's unique to me I'm satisfied yet bitter I feel I am inside of an entirely new playing ground Like the opportunity that lies ahead is so fully integrated already Now I only have to show up I have never not shown up But today I stayed so busy that when it was time for me to be alone I wanted to listen to songs on repeat and scream at the top of my lungs I'm not even in pain nothing has even happened to me There have been no triggers I just get in this mood where I want to be with everyone Yet sit alone and let my fingers click the keys that my brain decides to click Frustrated and so at ease with the fact that I am allowed to feel this way and not be ashamed of it I AM human, I AM not defined by my feelings or emotions Some days are dark and dreary and I want nothing to do with society Yet never stop being a part of it It's fucking irritating that physically escaping, is seemingly impossible Listening to sad music during these moods gives me Solidarity, of my mood It makes me feel alone How I occasionally want to feel, weird right? In a place where everyone is searching for someone I just want to be left alone To wallow in my pity and love every second of it What are we actually doing? Aside from creating this facade of a reality and calling it home This is not home You and I both know that the black hole that consumes me in my dreams at night That's home The darkness The womb The void The unspeakable Where you can see darkness but cannot actually see anything without a beam of light Fucking Christ Go away now, I want to be entirely Alone
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Now that I have described the most basic planes of existence it is time that I take you deeper into the feeling and power that you hold. From my personal experience of it.
Since I was a child I have always felt that there was a deeper meaning to my life. I am not just here to exist and live your seemingly average lifestyle. (Or the constructed lifestyle that we have created). We all are viewing this place from our own individual perception of it. Just as there are 7 billion people on this earth, there are 7 billion perspectives that come with it. We are all individually perceiving this world as something different. We all live in a different reality. Our reality is something that is unique to each and every one of us. We are all living in this wonder of why we are here. Why we have placed such hard times on ourselves. Just through the thought of wonder, of why we are here, we are creating reason. There must be a reason. There has to be. Right? It is finding this reason that creates strife. The mixed emotions upon us that tell us one thing is right and the other is not. How is this possible? That we all have our own created universes, our own created realities yet are supposed to believe that we all come from this specific thing or place or source. The problem I see here is the word "believe" I don't believe anything, not at all What I know to be true, is what I live. If I don't know it, truly know it, from the inside out then how could it be true? It can't. Belief is something that is shoved down our throats to make us feel more comfortable with our existence and experience of it. But why must we be comfortable? It's boring. So entirely boring. You want reason as to why you are here, why you have created this experience for yourself... Have you ever sat alone and asked yourself, why am I here? No really. Try it, and whatever pops into your mind first, listen to it. Is the response something absolutely insane? Or is it boring? If it sounds like insanity this is your soul speaking to you. If it is something that shuts down the insane possiblities, this is your ego. Those insane thoughts, that are begging to be listened to...that is your higher self calling to you. Listen to it. Really. Give it a shot. You want to talk about why you are here, yet you don't even listen to yourself for the real "reason". I think this may be why some have become so clouded in their authenticity. They are longing for answers, and are made to believe that there is an outside answer. That there is something we can place blame upon for what we are experiencing. Some large force that is responsible for what we go through, that is responsible for our actions as individuals. I hate to break it to you, but the only person or force responsible for your troubles, your suffering, for your happiness, for your joy, for all that you experience in this human body, is YOURSELF. I know we all came here for different experiences, I know that our individual experience has an effect on the collective experience. Either way, the ultimate is up to you. You determine everything for yourself. Some may not know the following statement to be true, but I find it mildly true for myself. I created this path for myself, I sought it out long before I came into this body. I take responsibility for pre-determining what my mission is. There are many trials and tribulations that I have had to experience to get me to this point of internal knowing. They fucking hurt, a lot. They broke me. & I say "they" as if I am blaming the experience or others, but I am only referring to me and my experience of myself through others. I see each individual as a way to Love myself even more. You are all a mirror or a reflection of more and more Love waiting to be integrated. "Love thy neighbor as thy self" So, I bring to you, Me. Authentically, divinely inspired, and truthfully Me. "I" may not even exist to you, I'm but words behind a screen. I long to be so much more than that. I long to be known, in any perspective that will serve you in your highest good. However you are seeing me is just your projection or refelction of yourself. I do not actually exist. What we know is what we owe
I know unconditional love, so I owe unconditional love I know the knowledge that I am withholding, so now I must share I owe it to you, and to myself to serve thee as much as I know Starting today with the 7 Planes of Existence 1st Plane: Earth: Also known as the 3rd Dimension
SOURCE: The most in-invasive way to describe the place we all have been birthed from. A source of whatever you desire to refer to it as. 3rd plane: Light Body: Also known as the 5th dimension
This is truly not the case. It is the feeling inside of you that lets you know you have arrived. That you have woken up to the Love that you are. It is possible to exist this way, it is possible to live so openly and so freely Transcend the old way of thinking The idea that you will never amount to something much larger than what you are I am Speaking the truth that I AM The truth I have experienced This is real for me Your experience of it may be boldly different, and that is ok. I do not want to push this onto anyone, for I don't believe in it I KNOW it, I EXPERIENCE it Daily, hourly, through each moment I exist I keep Loving because it is all that I know
that will last, eternally Beyond me and you I keep Loving because it destroys me and builds me simutaneously We were being destroyed uphill, rebuilt past the peak The forest below the mountain is where I reside Living in the breeze and melting in the streams You came to visit me, noticing I was accompanied by a stranger I saw you, but you didn't know Pivoting around to head back into the night Turning into a potent shadow Dissipating into the darkness When the Z's roared from the nostrils of most, I wandered to the waters Never knowing what I may discover Alone sat a man, drenched in transparently wet cheeks His heart pouring into the stream, carried away his pain "It hurts, doesn't it" I whispered eloquently We sat for moments Silence More silence Staring at his back, barely missing the reflection of his face in the water It never ended We stayed until the sun rose I woke, knowing everything I had just experienced Was but a dream In ALL instances there is a single parameter or dimension of being.
You are always a entity, always existing In any form The first chart below is showing you the formation of Physical from non physical. Your involution into your consciousness Involution: the decent or transformation of spirit into matter -- Emanations Emanation: an abstract but perceptible process in which something is originating from a source Emanation cannot be a single or linear process. As far as coming into being in the physical universe is concerned, emanation/involution is a fourfold process. (four distinct processes, all which come together to constitute objective physical reality) Our physical reality is a maximum involution stage -- at the point of its greatest stability "The central/zero point" All existing seemingly separate, yet living from the exact same zero point created in each moment. Universe of material form: The most manifest universe: The most dense Ether: The interface between the psyche & the the physical It includes the many subtle states of existence that have little relation to our current world. The ether also includes blueprints of the physical, giving us knowledge of accessible pathways before our decent It is absolutely necessary to come into form to reach enlightenment/liberation/consciousness Only in the physical is evolution actually possible, due to the fact that other realms of existence are "typal" and serve non-linear timelines. The growth is not being gauged by physical aging, or any aging at all. In the 3rd dimension we gauge growth by age, and time spent on the earth, per individual body. It is dense and stable enough in 3D to form a foundation in which structures (bodies), can take on and be a vehicle of consciousness as a part of the Noetic Absolute. "The supermind" At every point the same basic properties apply -- evolution is both moving upward and forward through space and time. Turning attention to the 2nd diagram shown: Christogenesis: A process that forms the total christ consciousness (33) the number of vertebrae in the spine Noogenesis: The emergence and evolution of intelligence Biogenesis: the synthesis of substances by living organisms -- living matter only arises from other living matter Cosmogenesis: origin or evolution of the universe Speaking process wise, it could be said that the divine activity is revealed synergetically in the syntropic acent, each of which leads to the emergence of new possibility, a new singularity (one mind, collective mind), and new evolutionary attainment. Moving through a portal of eternal consciousness, is the Absolute first step to coming into our bodies from the Omega point. We also have the following... Ontogenesis: The development of an individual organism or anatomical/behavioral feature, from the earliest stage of maturity. (The developmental history of an individual) Phylogenesis: The evolutionary development and diversification of a species or group of organisms. (The family tree) It is all, already here. It is already determined. It has never not been in the present moment, always. What is it? That's for you to determine. I have put together a small chart as an example to show how distorted our ideas can become in small social settings.
If I have a small gathering with 5 people over, there are 10 relationships going on in the same room. We are exposing ourselves to 10 different realities at once. For those that become anxious in social settings, this will help you become more aware as to why you are so anxiety ridden. There are so many different relationships taking place, energetically and physically. Especially when you are unaware that such a large exchange between those around you is taking place. It helps to visualize a white light protection bubble around you. Only allowing penetration when and where you want it. You do not have to allow your energy to run in a rampant exchange. Reel it in a little bit. You are allowing susceptibility to the construct of over engaging. It is not a requirement to engage in anything you do not want to during social outings. One step at a time you anxious little bee. Take a step back. Breathe. Just be. |
Kelsie Miner
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